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No Nicotine 7 Day Challenge

I made it 3 months once, 4 another time. I’m going to try this a different way.

As of 12:30, I’m doing a “no Nicotine 7 day challenge”

If I can make it through the week, I’ll extend it. I was able to do the Whole30 (only reason I quit at 22 days was because I had plans less than a month away and didn’t know steamed kale was sauteed in butter, so had to reset)

I make it through Nano every November. I may not always win the 50k challenge, but I typically write daily. I also have made it through

I have studied the ways to hold off cravings and have determined procrastination, boredom and habit are all reasons I smoke. Today, I should have held off because I woke with no irritability and no craving. I’m just sick of the hold it has over me and I can think of alot more we could do with the 150-300 a month it costs us.

Wish me luck.

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To the Ones Who Aren’t There Yet

To the ones who aren’t there yet
Get out now before you can’t
To the ones who use casually
But aren’t addicted yet
Maybe you’re dealing with trauma
Or you’re chronically bored
Maybe your friends all are users
And you just want to fit in and have fun
Whatever your reason, you’re not addicted yet
So get out while you can

When your heart isn’t into getting high
And you can still hold down a job
You still have your dreams
You just want to escape reality
Get out while you can

You are in the neglected side
Of the drug epidemic
There is no help- because you don’t have a problem
You’re not living the addiction hell day after day
But you’re not living clean
You can still quit, even if you lose your friends
The loss of fake friends is worth
Your dreams, finances, health and life

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This is for everyone not included in our epidemic- the ones who aren’t addicted… yet.

The ones who still do drugs for fun, to relieve stress or to cope with trauma- get out while you can, before you hit rock bottom and lose everything. Before you lose everyone you care about. Most importantly, before you lose yourself

I did. So did many of my other friends. We noticed when the high started having to be chased. We noticed when we were starting to crave the high, when it was not as fun as it used to be.

Get out before you have no choice. Look at the headlines- all the people who OD, who get diseases and who go to bed and never wake up. All the drug users who lose their kids, kill their kids or go to prison. Get out before you ruin your life.

Life is better sober, it’s better clean and living is better when you can fully experience it. Money is better spent on experiences, not drugs.

You are the ones left out of the drug battles- you don’t need rehab, you can quit anytime. You haven’t robbed, don’t steal and still work. You buy your own drugs. Leave the life before you are so caught up it takes everything you have.

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1 week into the Whole30

I’m only feeling pangs of cravings occasionally, nothing major.

I also am not feeling hungry- at all and no longer needing to snack.

I’m noticing more energy and feeling a bit better overall.

As the days go on, I’m getting more confident that I will be able to get past this and stay on the right track. I started out eating 2-3 fruits per day, yesterday I only ate one and I’m wanting to do at least one week without fruit to make sure I kick the sugar cravings, if I haven’t already.

 

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I started on day 4 of the Whole 30

I think the anxiety buildup of starting was ten times worse than actually starting.

Besides either accidentally using too much olive oil in 2 dishes last night or using bad garlic in one, it’s been smooth (I threw up pretty much everything I ate for lunch and dinner and thanks to work, had to almost combine lunch and dinner because I decided to go to bed early)

I’m barely even craving snacks or junk now and I was reading these are the worst days. I didn’t go full- Whole30 because if I attempted to quit smoking on top of the restrictive diet, I’d be setting myself up to fail. I’m even craving those less and smoking under a half pack a day.

Every time I start to feel annoyed with myself for taking on this “no desert” “diet,” I just have to remind myself it’s only a month and the benefits should be much better than giving up junk food.

 

Yesterday, I decided to keep the computer turned off and put my phone away after I got off work. I also cut my kids’ electronic time 2 hours before bed and they both went to bed on time and slept soundly- but we overslept and the alarm didn’t wake us up. (we had a HORRIBLE night the night before and none of us got much sleep)

I’m going to do that again tonight and see if it’s a repeat, I’ve been reading the book “Sleep Smarter” by Shawn Stevenson and there are so many things he suggests I’m planning on trying.

I would recommend that book to anyone who wakes up every morning exhausted and is always feeling tired. He goes into the science behind the suggestions and explains things in an easy to understand way.

I also started working out again, not too big of a difference since I would start one regime then move on to another. This time it’s a mix with HIIT and Yoga. Since I’m no longer in my 20s, I know I need to start taking things more seriously. I have logged off Facebook, not sure if this time it will be a few weeks or a few months. I kept Messenger so I could talk to people but other than that, I’m off it for a while.

Other social networks are linked to my business and I spend less time on those, so they are a nonissue, but I have been finding that Facebook is my kryptonite with getting anything at all done.

 

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Yesterday, I decided to start the Whole30.

Today is day 2 and already the cravings are unreal.

I know I’ll get past this and I’m hoping I’ll feel as great as people have said they feel but I’m already counting down to May 22 when I can start reintroducing.

Yesterday i went basic with boiled eggs for breakfast, tuna salad for lunch and game hen, sweet potatoes and mixed steamed veggies for dinner but I did snack on some pineapple after dinner. Today I’m working on cooking a bit more. I made sweet potato hash for breakfast and I’m not sure what will be for lunch yet, but im still 2 hours away.

As long as I can find things to do to take my mind off eating, I should be fine.

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Book Review: Prescriptions from Dr Love

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Title: “Prescriptions From Dr. Love”
Written by: Dr. Suzy Al Mushca
Genre: Self Help

She asked me to think about why conventional medicine alone hadn’t found the answers to what truly plagued me and why the bags full of medicine hadn’t improved the condition in which my body was in. She smiled her knowing smile, eyebrows raised, the gentle but straightforward questions hanging in the balance as she waited for my response.”Ridden with medical complications that plagued her for almost all her life, Dr. Suzan Al Mushcab finally lay at death door, when what was supposed to be simple surgical procedure went horribly wrong. Though this is not a book about that event in her life, it is the backdrop to a miraculous recovery in health, mind and spirit for a doctor, by a doctor. The miracle wasn’t in conventional medicine, nor was it in alternative medicine completely. It was in conversations that Suzan had with her alter ego, Dr. Love.

Prescriptions from Dr. Love: 10 ways to transform Dis-ease to Ease takes us through the powerful conversations that Dr. Mushcab had with herself.

Using tools that she learned in both medicine, alternative therapies and self development, Dr. Love took herself from death door to a fulfilling, happy and healthy lifestyle in which she is now thriving. In Prescriptions from Dr.Love: 10 ways to transform dis-ease to ease, readers can learn

•Why their minds are powerful tool for healing themselves
•Why food is medicinal and not just nourishment
•Why conversations with yourself are important for leading yourself
•How to implement different strategies for self healing
•How to find the source of problems in your body and then work at healing from the inside out

Review

Dr. Suzy Al Mushcab’s book, “Prescriptions From Dr Love,” offers a lot of helpful advice about using the power of your mind and thoughts to control the physical symptoms caused by guilt, anxiety and other negative emotions.

Al Mushcab details her “visits” dealing with a series of medical complaints she had for years and how, through changing the way she thought and felt about herself, she was able to solve the problems after traditional medicine failed to fix them. Her anxiety, fears and hidden insecurities caused migraines, constipation as well as other symptoms and one by one, the prescriptions given to her helped heal her mind and body.

She also goes in to how her on the go diet wasn’t as good as it could have been and how stressful her life was, but the main points in her book are about learning to love herself as well as raising her self esteem and learning to take care of herself.

She has a list of each of the “prescriptions” given to her by her alter-ego, “Dr. Love” with the process she put herself through to get those steps.

If you are plagued with digestive symptoms, headaches and other irritants (or even if they are disabling) and conventional medication isn’t helping, this book is worth reading. She goes into details as well as writes out the internal conflict as though she was actually speaking with someone else. It’s to the point and written easily enough for anyone to understand and the prescriptions give easy to follow advice.

 

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Author Spotlight: Dr Suzy Al Mushcab

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Title: “Prescriptions From Dr. Love”
Written by: Dr. Suzy Al Mushca
Genre: Self Help

 

She asked me to think about why conventional medicine alone hadn’t found the answers to what truly plagued me and why the bags full of medicine hadn’t improved the condition in which my body was in. She smiled her knowing smile, eyebrows raised, the gentle but straightforward questions hanging in the balance as she waited for my response.”Ridden with medical complications that plagued her for almost all her life, Dr. Suzan Al Mushcab finally lay at death door, when what was supposed to be simple surgical procedure went horribly wrong. Though this is not a book about that event in her life, it is the backdrop to a miraculous recovery in health, mind and spirit for a doctor, by a doctor. The miracle wasn’t in conventional medicine, nor was it in alternative medicine completely. It was in conversations that Suzan had with her alter ego, Dr. Love.

Prescriptions from Dr. Love: 10 ways to transform Dis-ease to Ease takes us through the powerful conversations that Dr. Mushcab had with herself.

Using tools that she learned in both medicine, alternative therapies and self development, Dr. Love took herself from death door to a fulfilling, happy and healthy lifestyle in which she is now thriving. In Prescriptions from Dr.Love: 10 ways to transform dis-ease to ease, readers can learn

•Why their minds are powerful tool for healing themselves
•Why food is medicinal and not just nourishment
•Why conversations with yourself are important for leading yourself
•How to implement different strategies for self healing
•How to find the source of problems in your body and then work at healing from the inside out

 

About the Author

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Dr. Suzan Almushcab, MD is from Saudi Arabia and currently lives in Calgary, Canada. She is a graduate of the King Faisal University School of Medicine. She completed her residency at the children’s hospital in Calgary and then pursued a second specialty at McGill University to become a Pediatric Endocrinologist.

She then continued her work with children at JAHA Center, formally known as Dhahran Health Center. She has cared for children with Diabetes and those with endocrine disorders as well. She established multiple guidelines specifically for outpatient on call care and for inpatient care of type 1 DM. She also established the initiation of insulin pump therapy in Dhahran Health Center.

She has received multiple awards for multiple campaigns including obesity and diabetes. She published an article about hypocalcemic seizures in infants due to vitamin D deficiency and was an expert member for the review of growth hormone therapy and treatment in children. Suzan’s biggest motivation and aspiration were her two children with Type 1 DM that she cared for through out the learning process and into their teenage lives.

She has retired from her medical career and has indulgently set out to acquire knowledge for holistic wellness. She has now become an Ayurvedic life style instructor & a Neuro Linguistic Program practitioner. Using her background experience of western medicine combined with the East Indian healing system, Ayurveda & NLP, she has been able to free her self from dis – Ease as well.

With new experiences behind her, she has attended many workshops that have contributed to her transformation. Her mission is to help women who want to reclaim their lives, to glow & flow and regain their health, joy and happiness from within. She believes that supporting women’s health and happiness is at the core of health and happiness for children, because it provides an opportunity for a brighter future for the next generation and society at large.

 

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I did notice a change pre and post 25- alcoholism/alcohol tolerance

I read a little while back that a woman’s brain is fully developed in her 25th year (for men, it’s 30)

It’s had me thinking and since I’m now half a decade away from 25, (I’m 31) I have been able to see how true that really was for me.

I have an impulse control disorder, it’s commonly joked about but it is real and makes impulses hard to control.

I have been thinking back and trying to remember years (typially by my kids’ ages) and I did realize that I may not have woken up on my 25th birthday different, but that year did make a huge difference.

Pre-25 Me

When I was 21, I drank. A lot. Like, so much that people were trying to get me into rehab for it (I actually did try but the cost and waiting time made it unfeasible). I would blow my whole paycheck at the bar after work. I got tired of going through my check so fast, I started giving myself an allowance (the rest would go in savings) and I’d only spend a set amount a night. It worked but there were some nights random people would offer to buy drinks (one guy hit the jackpot on a game 3 times and bought 3 rounds for the entire bar- that was the night I was trying to only drink 1-2 beers a night)

At 22, I met my husband and he was too young to go with me, so I very slowly quit drinking. He was never a drinker either so it wasn’t fun to drink without the man I was dating.

At 23, I had my first child. It was extremely easy for me to go the pregnancy with no alcohol.

It was also easy to go her NICU stay without it but I did pick some other habits up. I started overeating.

I also picked up loom knitting to kill the stress and it was very therapeutic.

While she was in NICU out of state, I went home for a weekend to study and take my state board exam for school. While I was home, we went to a game convention and the after party.

I met one of the workers and his wife and I ended up getting drunk. Instead of how I usually was, I cried most of the night about being there instead of at the NICU, even though the nurses themselves told me I needed a break and I made sure they would have a volunteer to go in and cuddle her a bit.

I didnt drink again after that for a year, when I drank with some neighbors, then again a year after that with neighbors. Both times the pain wasn’t worth the alcohol. I had to get drunk to avoid the pain so I slacked even further off.

Post-25 Me

By the time I was 25, I had one living 2 year old and 25 was the age we lost miss Cassie. It was also the literal year I found the side effects from drinking weren’t worth the taste. I got to a point I hated how I acted drunk, but I couldn’t even drink one small glass without getting a buzz. By that time, I was drinking maybe 2-3 times a year.

After 25, I started to notice how bad my joints would ache after taking just 1 sip.

I started just saying yes to the occasional offer when I was around someone else drinking so by the age of 26-27 I was down to maybe 1 a year.

This past summer, we took both kids to the beach with my parents. My mom and the kids were asleep and my husband and I went to a small restaurant at the hotel.

I was strictly on the gluten free diet by this time, so I researched and the margarita seemed safe. It had been over a year since I had drank last and I ordered a small margarita.

I had such a bad immediate reaction I couldn’t finish it. My stomach bloated up and I couldn’t breathe, I started to feel like my throat was closing up and it took me 30 minutes of walking around the beach to regulate my breathing. That night scared me to the point I’m now saying I’m allergic, although there is probably something I cant tolerate in most alcoholic drinks. I’ve been unable to drink most drinks for years anyways.

I say sometimes that my family has saved me from alcoholism and I do mean it but age is also playing a factor. When I was 21, I didnt get the severe pain in my joints I do now with one sip. I didn’t feel nothing but guilt for drinking and I didnt bloat up.

Either way, I prefer staying sober to being blacked out and passed out.

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I’m doing a mini Facebook Fast

This is something I do occasionally, especially when going through my feed starts to feel like a chore. I do it, but then it makes me feel like I’m wasting time (which I am)

I decided to go until February 28 (so, log back on March 1- if I want to go through the annoyance)

I see no real need to keep with it, I see no reason to even have a profile, but I keep it. I was told a while back that I needed to make sure I had a business page so that I could tell people who didn’t have Twitter, Instagram or other ways of following my website or Etsy shop

 

As of tomorrow, I’m 1 week in.

My last log in was January 28. My first time doing a facebook cleanse, I barely could last this long. Now, it feels like second nature. I do these a few times a year typically. When I first started, I did it as a trial to see if I could get away with deleting my Facebook permanently. It didn’t work out too well.

I did delete my account twice. The first time, I needed to get ahold of someone and found it was ten times easier to get ahold of them on Facebook and not on the phone.

The second time, I was trying to keep track of all my friends and family who said to keep them updated about when I had my baby, so I started a new account and only added those select family, in laws and close friends. That turned into adding back several people who requested me and before I knew it, I was back up to 100.

I’ve never had an account much older than 1 year but this time I decided to keep it and make it less personal.

I’m not planning on deleting

I am working on redoing things. I have been and I post very little private now. I keep the thought that if I wouldn’t post it publicly on my blog, if I wouldn’t say it in a guest blog for another site under my own name, if I wouldn’t sell the story to another website, I won’t post it on Facebook.

I use Facebook as one site to share articles and blogs I have written.

I use Facebook for networking and marketing purposes

I have found the best move for me personally

Instead of deleting the account, I do Facebook cleanses, as they’re called.

I take a few weeks to a few months off then go back on but before long, the incessant negativity has gotten to me again and I end up planning out another break. Most people go back with a renewed appreciation of the site, I just feel like it’s still a time-suck and waste to go but find myself browsing through my feed.

I know sites like that are supposed to be good for staying in touch with friends and family, but it doesn’t feel personal now like it used to feel. Already, keeping it turned off and staying away from accessing it at all has been giving me a somewhat hard time. I tried to respond to a comment on my latest post that was published and couldn’t without Facebook. I also have had a few pieces published and Facebook is the first place I typically share posts- but I’m doing a 100% fast right now, so those are being bookmarked until next month.

I’m still on the fence about how useful the site is (outside of a few random groups for writers/bloggers) but since I was told I needed a page since some people only have Facebook, I need to maintain my two pages at least a little.

 

Have you given up Facebook or gone on a “Facebook fast?”

If you have, what have been your obstacles? I may try to turn this into the 99 days challenge and see if I can go the full 99 days, not sure. I didn’t plan this. I just decided to see how long I could stay off this time.

 

 

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Day Four of the Self Care Challenge

I didn’t post about the one yesterday because it was to “unplug”

Of course, as a writer, I can’t fully unplug for a full day but I did for a little bit. My three year old led me on an adventure- across some rocks (pillows) and up and down a mountain (the stairs). It was a fun adventure.

 

Today’s challenge is to write out what you feel. In a way, I did that with my last post about the quarter life “crisis” I have been going through for several years now. Anything else I write out will be on paper and totally private.

This challenge is going smoother than the other challenges I have attempted to complete in the past. They’re quick, easy and I can easily fit them into my day to day life.