Tag: losing a child
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Its time to break the taboo
Tw- child loss Why is mentioning the child you lost so hard? The feelings of guilt for saying “I have 2 daughters” instead of 3. But if I say “2 and an angel” the conversation ends immediately (unless she is also in this inclusive and deranged club) Trying to brush it off and saying “I’m…
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Things I Wish I Knew When I Was Pregnant
I have had a total of three pregnancies- my first ended at 28 weeks with a partial abruption and severe pre-eclampisa. She was only 1lb 11.5ozs and 13 inches long and spent a total of 8 1/2 months in NICU. She’s now a small but healthy 7 year old. My second was relatively uncomplicated but…
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When I lost you
When I lost you, not only did I lose getting to know a person. I also lost hopes and dreams for the future. I lost everything I drempt you would be and every potential achievement you could have made. I lost a tiny hand in my hand and a chance to be your mommy. I…
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I’ve been cheated
I’ve been cheated out of knowing a little person. Cheated out of seeing that little person grow. Cheated out of watching that first step, hearing those first words or the first “mommy.” I never got to celebrate those milestones, first birthday or any birthday. Never got to dry her eyes after she cried. Never got…
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Christmas shopping for 2
We recently finished our Christmas shopping for 2 kids. We shopped for 2 girls- age 2 and 6. It is bittersweet. On the one hand, Christmas is a magical time- the kids love seeing the lights, decorations and love the cookies and gifts but it’s really hard knowing you should be shopping for a 2,…