Only 5 days left in 2018.

That means I only have 23 days until I’m 31.

3 weeks left until I have to say I’m “in my 30s” which was always a fear- no longer being in my 20s sounded like I’m officially a grown up- ignore the fact I’ve been married 8 years now and have one child close to 8 years old. I feel like leaving my 20s means I’m officially an adult.

I also only do new years resolutions I plan on keeping. My most memorable was made January 2, 2010- that I would get clean and sober and remain.

I did get back into drinking several times that year, but it was also the year I met my husband who didnt drink and being with him helped me to the point I quit over the years, now I react the same as an allergy and after I quit daily heavy drinking, I couldn’t handle even a sip without my whole body tensing up and being in bad pain in all my joints. Last summer, I had my very last drink- it took me a good 30 minutes to start breathing normal again and felt like my stomach was so bloated it hurt to breathe and my throat tightened up. Now I have a total excuse to reject drinks- to others and myself.

I have decided on a few changes I’m wanting to make over the course of the year.

Nothing sudden on January 1, but slow changes over time. Nothing as cliche as “lose weight” but I would like to drop from a 14 to an 8 over the next year and drop down about 20-30lbs to my first goal of 140-150.

Instead of saying “lose weight” my goals are to find and stick with a good workout routine, go back to meditating daily, drink more water, give up pop and everything I cant tolerate (starting with 1-2 months on Whole30)

Instead of saying “quit smoking” I’m going to say “find the method that works best so I can quit.”

I do need to keep in mind that since I’m getting older, my health does need to be my focus. I do need to stop eating what I eat, eat healthier and start taking better care of myself overall. Not just for myself but as an influence to my kids and to keep the Osteo from progressing. I have other goals, but they are long term and personal. These are the ones I’m sharing.

Do any of yall do resolutions? Instead of starting suddenly on January 1, anyone take them slower and try to maintain? I’d love to hear your thoughts about resolutions.