I was asked what I wanted.
All I could tell them was I wanted something I can play with, not a need and not clothing or something to use for my business. I want something just for me.
Now, I am at a total loss- no clue what I want.
My brain is going full speed but unless it’s like a book or something, I no longer can think of hobbies.
It’s kind of sad that at 31, I have no hobbies because I spend all my time working or writing and it’s making me realize how little I really have.
I work 24/7 unless I’m sleeping or running after my kids, I have lost damn near all my social skills and quit talking to my friends. My #1 identity is D####’s mommy” or “M#######’s mommy” and it feels like even with me taking time for myself and strongly believing in not losing yourself, I have lost myself.
Before kids, I was a gym rat. I had gym memberships and was actually taking a boxing class. Music was my life. I played basketball and walked all the time.
I’m still interested and keep promising myself I’ll start walking again but never get an opportunity.
Now that I’m out of the pregnancy and young baby stage, it is 100% time to get back to my center and find what works.
Its kind of funny when an innocent question like “what would you like for your birthday?” triggers such a mental storm, but it’s not a good thing when you’ve been lost for 8 years.
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Since I have so many DIY ideas, crafts and converted recipes I decided to create a smaller site and Twitter account to share those on. I’m no longer posting recipes and such here and I’ll be doing updates towards Nano and during November on that blog.
My girls and I decided to attempt bath bombs this afternoon. They had fun mixing and making a mess, they loved using one in the bath but they turned out nothing like they were supposed to. They crumble in my hand and I’m having to keep them in the mold until used. I think I know what I did wrong and we still have stuff for more, but would it be a success since they had fun or a fail since it didnt work right?
I would love to live on a few acres, have a full size vegetable and fruit garden, my own wood shop with a full tool kit as well as professional grade tools and spend my days woodworking, gardening, drying herbs and creating. That seems like it would be a dream life. I haven’t learned much with woodwork outside of basic burning and the basics of sawing and nailing but I also don’t have room in my small apartment to learn something that messy.
I am working on learning how to quilt. My first was successful but I have too many pieces cut that don’t match and no one off the top of my head to give a baby quilt to.
I’ve been watching embroidery videos and practicing the stitches they are teaching. I just dyed my first piece of fabric and already have plans for what I’m going to do with that.
Sewing is fun, it’s a creative outlet but there is something about the smell of wood- after you finish wood burning or when you’re cutting into it- it smells amazing and the results are beautiful.
One of these days i would love making tables, chairs and even beds.
I am planning on starting an herb garden this year and dry them out.
I also have plans to plant one or two small vegetable plants.
I’d love to get my 6 year old interested in doing arts and crafts with me, but I did get my 2 year old to paint her first birdhouse a few days ago and she loves coloring, painting and everything else.
I have been practicing Wood burning- letters and numbers. I know it’s not a hard craft to do, but I’m still learning. That was my first attempt- it was messy and sloppy so we turned the piece I was working on into a shelf so you can’t see what I was doodling.