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My birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks.

I was asked what I wanted.

All I could tell them was I wanted something I can play with, not a need and not clothing or something to use for my business. I want something just for me.

Now, I am at a total loss- no clue what I want.

My brain is going full speed but unless it’s like a book or something, I no longer can think of hobbies.

It’s kind of sad that at 31, I have no hobbies because I spend all my time working or writing and it’s making me realize how little I really have.

I work 24/7 unless I’m sleeping or running after my kids, I have lost damn near all my social skills and quit talking to my friends. My #1 identity is D####’s mommy” or “M#######’s mommy” and it feels like even with me taking time for myself and strongly believing in not losing yourself, I have lost myself.

Before kids, I was a gym rat. I had gym memberships and was actually taking a boxing class. Music was my life. I played basketball and walked all the time.

I’m still interested and keep promising myself I’ll start walking again but never get an opportunity.

Now that I’m out of the pregnancy and young baby stage, it is 100% time to get back to my center and find what works.

Its kind of funny when an innocent question like “what would you like for your birthday?” triggers such a mental storm, but it’s not a good thing when you’ve been lost for 8 years.

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As soon as the Fourth of July passes

I start to feel the spirit of Halloween, then the whole holiday season ending with Christmas.

Maybe it’s because I work in retail or because I do Etsy and most of my stuff revolves around holidays, but I’ve been thinking about Halloween for the past few weeks. (starting to prepare my shop)

Anyone else feel like they think from one holiday to the next? My husband and dad both have birthdays, my and my husband’s anniversary, my mom’s birthday, back to school, Halloween, Nano starts, Thanksgiving, Black Friday, my daughter’s birthday, Christmas, New Years, my birthday, Valentine’s Day, my other daughter’s birthday, Easter, etc

Most of those involve fun decorations and I love the spirit from September through December- not to mention all the shopping, decorating and baking. (be prepared for tons of gluten/dairy free recipes around the holidays and I’ll be posting crafts.

I’m in the process of preparing my shop for the holidays and started Christmas shopping (since we have a birthday 3 weeks before Christmas) and that further got me in the mood.

What puts you in the holiday mood? Anyone else completely fine with seeing decorations and such come out in stores months in advance? I constantly hear people complain about how early stores start getting ready for Christmas, but since having kids I love it.